Is Life...
When I was 5 years old,
Mum told me that happiness was the key to life.
When I went to school,
They asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up,
I wrote down "happy".
They told me that I didn't understand the assignment ,
And I told them they didn't understand life...
**By John Lennon.

Sorry For Loving You...

我们已经多久不联系了、感觉这一辈子都不会再见到你了。

有些事、不说是个结、说了是个疤。

那些不能说的秘密、会不会成为我们永不见面的借口。

一直在想、

很多年以后、如果我和你、就这样再也不联系、

可突然有一天、就这么站在喧嚣的人群里、相互注视着对方、

第一句话需要多大的勇气才说的出。
请你原谅, 我的无言...
**shared from somewhere.

Lesson In Life...
A wise man sat in the audience and cracked a joke.
Everybody laughs like crazy.
After a moment, he cracked the same joke again.
This time, less people laughed.
He cracked the same joke again and again.
When there is no laughter at crowd,
He smiled and said,

You can't laugh at the same joke again and again,
but why do you keep crying over the same thing,
over and over again?

Leave Me Alone...

Today, I m going to leaving my feeling on this wall...

Here, this the only place I feel secure and safe...

Because, there is nobody except me... 

Here, a place that definitely belongs to me only...

"Status: Active"

Today, I login Facebook using my friend acct.. I never thought gonna see her status again (As her status already been unsubscribe on my acct.). I hate myself for losing control and the heart pain that never less, after seeing her wall post. I m telling myself, I shouldn't like that, I should be happy as she had found her 1.
But, I just can't.

也许, 我们不该再联系...

你的信息, 你的境况, 看了, 只有心痛...

我真的很自私, 对不起...

Holiday Ends...
Leaving home tonight...
With 1 backpack and 1 hand carry...
Although it's quiet full already,
But, it feel like short of something, I don't know......

Weight on shoulder is lifting on...
It's never good, and I just can't continue...
When this life going to last?

At last, shooting zombies time, I m happy...
I love Left 4 Dead 2...

南拳妈妈-不该结束

窗外的雨停了 天空还是灰的  

因为爱情也停止了 

回忆在播放着 在笑容里停格 

画面会永远留着 

给多的是付出 少给的不算输  

感情不需要胜负 

我给了你全部 你还是想结束  

我说你永远幸福 

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束  

付出多才会了解什么是幸福 

快乐的开始 祝福的结束 

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束  

走到了末路还是会留下祝福 

我会牢牢记住  

你给的 全部 的全部 

Confused...
Today, there is something lucky happen to me...
I had received scholarship worth 40k, is quiet a lot to me...

I m happy and curious...
I don't know why, they choosing me,
I m not the better, but the laziest...
I m also doing well during interview,
Dyed hair, not be able speak a fluent language...

I m really not deserve to take this...
May be, I should reject this offer?

Some Sort Of Effort...

Sometimes you gotta try your hardest not to care,

no matter how much you really do...

I had tried my ever best in doing this,
I thought did it well, and, I was wrong...

1 picture, 1 massage, even 1 alphabet...

Is making all my effort wasted...
Finally, I realized, it doesn't work...

Don't think, don't hear, don't see, doesn't means it's gone...

That feeling seem not gonna change, although time passed...

And, I m still here...

Last Time...
时间过了, 很久很久...
回忆, 依然很清晰...
就像昨天的事...
心, 还是一样的痛...
感觉, 一点都没变...
只是, 希望没有了...

2nd NOV 2011...
I think I m okay now...
Just living simple and have a good life...

Keep on telling myself,
I m not special, is okay to be lazy...
I m not smart, is okay to do wrong...
I m not perfect, is okay to fail...

Try to feel a freaked new life...
Try to feel others with heart...
Try to do something dislike...

Feel life, just accept what the God decide...
And, I m not happy with my life...

SKEE 1023...

Exam is just passed, 4 hour ago...

Stress has gone, or may be it never come...

I didn't manage to do well...

But, I can't feel anything about my failure...

May be, I m no longer care for my study...

Is it this, what they called mindset,

Because of I didn't care, then I won't feel sad...

I m sitting down there, 

Seeing all kind of faces, after the exam...

Some of them was happy, some looks sad,

And the others are discussing about the questions...

At the least, they still having that kind of passion....

Now, I m sitting in front of my computer...

Doing nothing, but don't want to shut it down...

I just don't want to let you go, my mouse...

Should I stop?

Today...
我以为, 生活开始转变了...
我以为, 孤单的日子已经过了...
我以为, 笑了开心了就会没事了...
我以为, 不再伤心就是忘记了...

其实, 我一直都在欺骗着自己...
尝试, 遗忘着, 一个, 无法忘记的回忆...
以为找对了, 但感觉不再一样了...
在这刻, 我又想你了...

但发现, 我无法找回以前的快乐...
也许, 这一切已经不一样了, 找不回了...
是时候, 改变了, 做回现在的自己...
寻找真正的快乐, 为以后的生活而努力...

Money...
Money is playing an important role in life...
Is money so important?

For others, I don't know, but, to me, is absolutely not...

After seeing a young Africa kid who had suffer from kwashiorkor, 

My concept about money was changed...
Without money, I feel myself helpless...

The money on its owns doesn't means anything...

Is depend on people, how they going to use it...

Money is nothing without use...

How to be happy?

This is the topic assign by my lecturer...

Is not hard to be happy but not easy too...

And, it's really tough for me to achieve that...

A journey toward happy life is ___ ...
Just live the ways that you feel good...

As long as you happy, there is nothing to be worry...

Our life is not long and it shouldn't be wasted...

We should appreciate the life...
Nothing wrong to be happy...

It is really a tough assignment - HAPPY...

I m so BORING...
Boring for the university life...
Boring for the courses offered by the faculty...
Boring for the activities held by the clubs...
Boring for attending the lectures...
Boring for seeing those boring faces...
Boring for surfing internet without any purpose...
Boring for day dreaming as only activity...
Boring for missing her all day long...
I don't want to be here...

我要独立...
身边的人都说我, 很会花钱...
但, 我已尽力了, 我花的用的, 都日常开销...
这星期, 我用了RM500, 有点过隆了, 我懂...
但都用在日常用品+文具+吃的而已...

年纪大了有行动不便的婆婆, 一人坐在银行外...
难道我可以当作看不见吗? 妈, 对不起, 我做不到...
但是, 你说得没错, 我给的不是我的钱, 当然慷慨啦...

户口里的钱, 剩下的, 也不多了...
我不能, 每次的每次都向家里要钱...
这次, 只好靠自己了, 又要打工了...
打工, 读书, 对我来说, 都没差...

Need to alone...
At this moment, I was confused...
I don't know why I m here, why I m doing this for...
I lost my life direction, living here with no purposes...
May be, I need a place like this to calm down...
I need a longer time to reset my life...
From sorrow to cheerful life...
Sorry, for people around me...
I just want to be alone...
Walk alone, sit alone, lunch alone, reading alone...
And, I think, this is the most suitable type of life for me right now...

Reality...
Now a day, in our society, not everything we do have options...

Is all about society needs, is not our requirements...

Sometimes, I feel my life hopeless...

Everyone are flowing a trend, a life trend...

Are this life trend suitable for all of us?

Doctor, accountant, lawyer, engineer and etc...

Why we must go for this? 

For me, I do study, but isn't for those things...

I study well, because I found it interesting...

CGPA 4.00 = Go University, I don't think so...

Can our life be little bit easier?

I want a happy life...

Sad, sad, and sad...

有时候, 真的很矛盾...

往往你做对了, 但又会后悔的决定...

她遇到困难了, 我应该给于安慰...

她在FB add我了, 我应该接受...

我不懂我在想什么? 真的...

难道, 你不懂我会难受吗?

难道, 你真的以为我放下了吗?

难道, 你真的不懂我做这一切的用意吗?

One Message...

你的关心,

给了我短暂的快乐...
让我开心了又失望了...

给了我不可能的希望和假设...

让我又开始更想你了...

冷淡的回复, 不想再给大家任何希望...

因为, 我承受不起, 再一次的失去...

对你的想念, 只能收在心底了, 希望不会痛了...

但, 很遗憾, 没有忘记过你...